Mother of Five, Two to Hold

A Happy Mother's Day Week to each of my friends, whether you hold your babies in your arms today or you are humbly celebrating the day with tears in your eyes because your baby isn't here on earth. Or even for my beautiful friends who are still trying to get pregnant. Mother's day is also celebrated for you too.

I am a mother of 5 babies. Three of my babies are in heaven and I am fortunate enough to hold the other 2 here on earth.

I know what it is like to feel attached but left out during Mother's Day. And as hard as I wanted to change that, I couldn't. I celebrated my own mother on Mother's Day for all of my life, then one year I hoped that next year I would be a mother by this holiday time. But when that mothers day rolled around, tears were overbearing the holiday because I was am a mother, but my arms were empty.

A moment in time I will not forget that year was when my mother-in-law, Gina, gave me a mini-rose bush. She handed it to me and said "your a momma too, you know". Wow, someone remembered that I was hurting that mother's day. Someone remembered that we should be celebrating too. She remembered me. And that made my heart smile. It gave me hope and a new love for her because she was seemingly as sentimental as I was. And it gave me a new outlook that she was praying just as hard for us as we were that next year would be different.
The next year was different. I held my one and only living baby in my arms that Sunday morning, proud as the most sun-beaming mother in that church. But my heart was hurting still. Hurting because his other half was not in my other arm. And the prior 2 pregnancies in the back of my mind with nothing to show for.
This year, I held both of my living babies in my arms and thanked our Lord and Savior for the blessings that I wake up for every day. And I remember the ones that changed my life.
The things in life that mean the most are to some, the hardest to obtain. But that made us more appreciative and better parents and people. To my friends who have been there, who are there, and who are trying to get pregnant, my heart is with you this week.

Trust in the Lord Always....